Bittersweet Life...

Thursday, August 04, 2005

fyi ppl, esp my darlings- drools and feli- i didnt rebond my hair, precisely like wat elfi said. thank u elf.. it was a temporary one onli... haha.. so im still the lil ms frizzylady... however, i am, as always, jambu drools... muhahah.

was damn late for sch todae... came in half an hr late.. but wat the heck. got to noe my results for applied heat a.k.a phy paper.. and i PASSED!! horay~! it wasnt a gd pass, but still... it'll do for now...

went mkn with the boys, then dropped by JP... walked ard.. bought a brush and a comb. haha... i dunno y.. gatal.. duit da takde, masih gatal nak beli unneccessary stuffs..

came a lil late for prac... did nth much... zeeq became extra hyper.. tt's sooo typical.. muhahah..

wanted to adilla to finish class, so tt we can go gym.. but, she cancelled the plans.. boohoo~...

haha... make sure u make it up girl...

tmr, my plans are in a mess... i have activities for the da whole dae... but dunno which one to attend.

my dae went great, i guess... until mom came home and got me all frustrated. im supposed to overnite at siglap this fri, which is tmr, to prepare for an event on sat... told her last nite.. and she was like, ok. then, she was like questioning me non stop juz now... damn... give me some space woman... get away frm me... once again, i found out tt the parents have yet to trust me... thank god for me schlin in sp... sch far away has its advantages... and boy, im glad for tt... it's so fecked up, u noe... me gettin questioned abt overniting at siglap.. and, c'mon, it's in siglap. u dun believe, give a call... i aint lying la... baru kat siglap overnite, da bising2.. im so fucked up. bingit ah...

im 17, but i dun feel like one when im at home. i juz wish i have the guts not to come home one day. u noe... like run away for a dae or two.. or for a few daes... tt is if i have the guts, im so pissed off... i dun have the freedom yet. i dun have the parents believin my words. they dun trust me. i c others being free and havin fun and makin their own decisions... when they are 17. evident proof: my frens. well, they mite care for me.. but it's a lil bit too much.

i dun like being sheltered too much frm the harsh reality of the world now.. i wanna be out there, earn my own money... i noe it's hard. i wanna feel tt hardship. im ungrateful? no im not... im juz... deprived. deprived of the real world. im being locked up too much indoors... in this hell, where ppl think it's very heavenly.

im sick and tired of living life this way. missing out on outings with frens which i cant join. gotta be home early. and reachin home at 9 is late to them. shit man... i noe ppl my age, who do have proper parents and a home, goin home later than tt... and these ppl arent all guys... some are girls too... i still dun understand y they still wont let me go... y they cant loosen their grip a lil...

i've yet to tell dad abt me overniting at siglap... we'll see how things go tonite.. and i predict, there'll be a huge verbal war ala iraq-american style...

im desperate to stop living my life this way. better still, i wish all this shit could end.

lala: mengarut!
zulu: nth better things to do izzit... yeah.. kompang was great... but it was onli for a short while..

Smashed into pieces at 8/04/2005 07:59:00 PM